But he came back to look for me

Last summer, I met a guy in a random online chat room.

(Right before this photo was taken as it happens, as I remember falling asleep in the grass behind the beach on a day when we were chatting).

It was a nice but pretty casual chat, but then the following weekend we were both there chatting again and he said, I was hoping I’d see you here again.

And you know, we dated a bit and had quite a long drawn-out and deep, daily, connection, and although it’s true that he never wanted to see me again after the second date I had not unreasonable hopes that he would, at some point. In the end he simply disappeared one day without warning. But he had come back to look for me.

It still blows my mind that someone who was trying so hard to find you can eventually let you go, just like that. People change so quickly. I don’t have any answers - I can guess at what he might have been thinking that led to him leaving, but I’ll never really know. Maybe it’s the learning to live without answers that matters.