Agony and Ecstasy and… Apathy?

I’m finding it hard to focus on a feeling.

I’m not worrying about things - my future is assured and every day I take steps towards it, that’s what I believe. So I’m not worrying about that. I’m happy with how things are going. Almost everything is still within my power.

Loads of opportunities to create, but no-one to see. No-one to share it with.

I feel good about the future, scared that I’m wasting time and not realising it, that this is a false sense of all the days ticking by just the same. But on the other hand I find the routine and the limited options really reassuring.

Anyway at some point things will change. At some point something really astounding and incredible will happen. It always does. Until then I’m going to keep chipping away at whatever seems to be the right thing to do next.