The Attractive Unexpected

Honestly, I think my problem with being in relationships stems from something much more fundamental than being unable to commit.

One of the most exciting things to me is waking up not knowing what the day will hold.

Not knowing who I’ll meet.

Not knowing exactly what I’ll choose to do (I do have an idea but I try not to fix hard schedules much more than a day ahead, unless it’s unworkable). I move my tasks around at will, mix things up, follow my nose.

I’m free to make spontaneous decisions about where to go and when.

And so much of that is just incompatible with stable relationships.

Waking up to the same person (even someone that I really, truly love) - it’s just too predictable, to find them there.

I’m sure I will meet someone else who understands at least that part of it.