New Moon: Mode B

Today I wouldn’t say I’d “achieved” a lot - health baseline hit and a couple of other bits done, but hardly productive. But in a way I learned something totally new: how to relax well, without going back to sleep, without fretting, without getting down on myself. In a way, I took a step towards preparing for my new life, the life I just live, happily.

Resting Well included:

• A long walk

• Hot coffee

• Excellent home-prepared meals

• Soaking up the sunshine

• Cuddle time

• Painting

• Reading a book I wouldn’t normally say I “had time for”

• Learning a new meditation/relaxation technique from the book

• Calling a friend

• Pottering around the flat - I can really see how small changes and bits of tidying up can cleanse the space

• Little bits of new hobbies for the fun of them, without having to achieve anything

• Wrote up some affirmations

I stayed off the laptop and TV shows until normal time in the evening. Learning to subsist in the semi-silence was actually really lovely. I just enjoyed existing, took the weather as it came and went, did what felt right.

All these days are steps in the right direction. Coming out of addiction and depression is like learning how to live all over again.