Grating

Why does she frustrate me so much?

The shackles are your own delusion. You think things that make things seem worse than they are.

It’s only a little big longer but a good chance to work on reframing while I still have annoyances to reframe.

Have I gotten so used to everything being perfect?

I need to hate someone because I’m still so angry for being in the wrong position to start with.

It’d be better to let that go - I didn’t do anything wrong by doing what I felt I had to do at the time. I thought it would all work out and it did, by some measures. We were secure when we needed to be and then I found my way. None of these things have been as easy as things are now.

She’s a lot of the opposites to what I want to feel.

Short with us when I think people should come first.

Shortsighted when I would tend to see the pitfalls in terms of the long-term end-game.

Blinkered when - if no-one’s taking the big-picture, holistic view, then what are we doing?

Thinking that it all revolves around her - her desperate grasps at security for herself above all else. I don’t need to be like that. And I will need to get used it all revolving around me as it’ll be my business, my choices, soon.

Deliciously oblivious because I’ve been able to shield her from the worst of the truth.

Was I trying to protect us both? Anyway there was nothing to salvage that hasn’t been.

It’s just friction and a sign that I’m right to make a change. But it’s not worth hating someone just to ease the moving on.