Energy Days

I don’t know how anyone else deals with this but as a creative person working for myself the concept of “days off” can be pretty elusive at times. The line between work and enjoyment is so blurry anyway but I am trying to work out what I need in terms of rest and unplugging from the creative/productive dynamo. There are complicated questions about how much I do for the sheer love of it and how much is structured towards income and then there’s “work” that isn’t necessarily income-producing. Maybe it’s the definitions that are unhelpful, I’m not sure.

Anyway, this weekend I had made so much progress during the week (not everything, but most of it) that I wanted to have two days where I just allowed myself to BE. Exercise in the form of long walks were my only commitment. I did end up napping but also naturally gravitated to some light-level creativity, reading, and just conversations with the unknown and time that was contemplative or meditative. It was about comfort and playing around with ideas and with objects. I like to wishcast for the future as well as sit in gratitude for what I have. I need to find a balance between that sense of wanting to move forward to something greater and also being extremely grateful for where I am - the most important concept being that of moving forward in confidence and sure of succeeding, that’s the best but trickiest feeling to foster I think as we all have doubts about our abilities.

I came out of the weekend with loads of new ideas to work on, but still (here on Monday morning) trying to ramp up the energy to implement them. I have various ways of approaching that though. Coffee, taking my time, only letting myself do things for five minutes to start with, and books I’m reading that will encourage me to move forwards. That’s all I have to do today - forget the lists, but apply myself practically to the ideas.