A Reading for a New Year
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So today is the first day of my fortieth year.
As you’ll know (especially if you’re here from Instagram) I do a morning tarot 3 or 4 card draw and this was today’s. All major arcana today, which I think is the first time since I started doing them, and a load of lessons that I expect will stay with me through this whole (hopefully major) year.
The Hermit - is a lot to do with quiet contemplation and journeying inwards, which is what I’m about to do with leaving work and devoting my whole life to my creative projects, really losing myself in my own internal world and in bringing it out. It doesn’t have to mean this but I think there is an element of physical isolation as well - lockdown has been good for me in a lot of ways, and I’ve been getting other messages about not pursuing relationships (it doesn’t stop me trying! but I get how they’re less helpful and even distracting at a time like this). Run fast in the other direction and love will chase you, seems to be the message; but you don’t need anyone else to be able to live this amazing year to its fullest.
Strength - obviously the path I’m about to embark on is going to require a lot of strength and resilience, as I’m expecting some doubt and possibly self-loathing to be inevitable at blind spots along the journey. In this deck, Strength is about self-acceptance, incorporating all facets of the self and taming your inner fire. I’ve been working on my fire (wands especially) and I know my creative fire has the pull of madness hidden within it, which will need taming - I’ve never planned to give myself over to it as fully as I’m planning to this year but also hoping to stay grounded and structured enough so that it can be incorporated into “real” life in a balanced and productive way.
The Magician - he’s the one who shows us what’s possible and what resources are available. A year of Magic is exactly what I’m hoping and planning to bring about. A year of seeing what I’m really made of.
On the bottom of the deck I got the Tower which I think goes to my underlying sense that things have to fall apart to fall together. I’ve got the feeling that I’m stepping into the life I was always meant to have, a magical, enchanted, captivating day-to-day that was always waiting for me once I cast off the shrouds of depression, indecision, misaligned expectations, and mediocrity.
Although they were just cards for today, I think I’ll come back to these themes repeatedly over the coming year. And maybe at the end of it I’ll be 40, sitting on my own personal rainbow.